The perfect guy found his perfect girl...
And they live happily ever after..
im happy for u.
i always wish for u to be happy.
guessed i got what i wished for.
jealous? why should i be?
he fucking deserves someone better than me..
way better..
just find it so hard to let go.
but im sure he has no problem in doing that.
im trying to dissapear .
just for his sake.
i wished u all the best..
may u 2 last long...

living another day of my miserable life.
when will it ever end?
the heartaches, the pain , the tears,
i cry every fucking night,
sometimes without even a fucking reason.
wats with that?
yeahh. still hurt myself.
its my choice.
noone should interfere.
i don want anyone else to get hurt.

Another day goes by, i don't understand or know the reasons why,
Another day goes by.

i tried to making a difference but nothing helps.
still completely alone.
alone.
still have no shoulder to cry on ,
noone to relate to,
what the fuck should i do?
should i just shut this life and make everybody's life easier?

yeah. something weird happen today.
while everyone is celebrating the end of DNT lesson ,
hafiz was having fun doing somethin.
yeahh.. drilling holes in his nails.
i gotta admit, find it fascinating.
who else would do any crazy stuff in sch?
other than that somebody kissing hafiz on the cheek.
in front of ,, someone. damn.
great timing.
piss that asshole off.
everybody would want that.

and now.
still crying my eyes out.
my tears never run out.
maybe i would bleed tears.
or something like that.
i need of someone or something ,
to understand me.
seems that someone don't exist.

lilah , give up.