i noe im messed up nowdays...
god ,
i dunno if i cn take this anymore..
if i were to commit suicide ,
which method would i have chose anyway ?
hmm... would anyone miss me if im dead?

SUICIDE METHOD 1:
cut myself and bleed to death

advantage: i get to use my favourite knife or razor
Disadvantage : 1) my blood would be everywhere , those cleaning me up would start cursing
2) i may not cut the right vein and i may be saved in time

SUICIDE METHOD 2:
jump from a certain height ( 29 storeys?)

great : its quick and easy
sucks : 1) if i picked a wrong storey (too low) i may end up paralyzed then i would be a burden to everybody.
2)my body parts aint gonna stick to me ( here goes the curses of the people cleaning me up)

SUICIDE METHOD 3:
fire ( yeahh , and die from the flame)

great: people would remember as the fiery red rose ,
sucks: 1) might get people injuired ( wad if they cnt put out the fire?)
2) its really gonna be painful
3) i would still feel the flames when i reach hell

SUICIDE METHOD 4 :
drug overdose

great: get high before i die
sucks: Try getting high from panadol

SUICIDE METHOD 5:
eat/drink to death

great: i cn pick my fave foods and die in peace after that
Sucks: my body would stop after im full (DUH!)

SUICIDE METHOD 6:
Get killed in a fight

great: i can take down enemies and bring them to hell with me
Sucks: 1) people would remember me as the "rowdy" , unmemorable
2) There would be body parts everywhere

SUICIDE METHOD 7:
Hire a killer

great: get the job quick
sucks: As if i got money

SUICIDE METHOD 8:
( chosen )
DIE OF A BROKEN HEART

great: 1) remember me for the love i gave
2) remember my poems written

sucks: once my life is ended , theres no going back .


In fact , im already dead .. so...
yeah.. no point listing all this shit .


still thinking of ace ( im not surprised)
haiz . its breaking my heart every minute .
and then , something creeps up .
bloody perfect timing .
u guys really want me dead .
then kill me already .