- Welcome to my Life -

with the radio blasting all along
and noone hears you screaming

if u dun noe whats its like ,
when nothing feels alrite ,
u dunno what its like to be like me ,

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when ur down
u feel like u been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
but noone's there to save you
if u dunno what it's like ,
welcome to my life ..

randomness fills my time nowdays
even my friends left me alone for a few days
i seemed more moody , i totally lost myself
more sad , i dunno if i cn get my happiness back

nah , today's , pretty alrite ,
not forgeting how we made fools out of ourselves ,
me , hugging every mannequin i see ,
mostly from metro . lol .
yeah . my friends didnt ditch me this time .

my knives are still missing ,
but i kinda found something sharper
and it comes from a cpr dummy ,
perfect timing ,

i really feel alone nowdays ,
i really do .
sometimes , i just wanna break free from that feeling

anyways ,
im sorry to embarrased our school . lol
i sucked at badminton man .
well , atleast , i made friends with the badminton team from fuchun sec .
and they all noe me now .
faiz still have not contacted me .. haiyoo .. hw long man .
i kinda want the rest of the teams' contacts .

me and hafiz were like competing how has more scars and stuff like that ,
it was pretty funny when mr elkan saw his scars
yeah rite lah hafiz , u lost control when u were playing with the stapler .
lol
still not enough blood though . lol

- no way out -

everywhere i turn i hurt someone
but theres nothing i can say to change the things i've done
i'd do anything within my power
i'd give everything i've got
but the path i seek is hidden from me now

of all the things i hid from u
i cannot hide the shame
and i pray someone , something will come
and take away the pain

theres no way out of this dark place
no hope , no future
i know i cant be free
but i cant seek any way
and i cant face another day

to ace :
yeah , i noe
another entry on u
i cnt never stop loving u
ur still in mind head
and ur staying there
god , ur seriously everywhere ,
on my table , on the tv ,
even in my textbooks

u really mean so much to me
but i noe i mean nothing to u ,
maybe im just invisible or something
sometimes i wonder , if i would ever be happy ,
i noe that i would never be ,
and i guess i could live with that

i feel so dead
drowning more and more in my tears
suffering without contact with u .. hmmm ..
i really hope u'll find happiness soon .
don be as pathetic as me .
im a pretty messed-up kid still struggling with life
haiz...
do tell me how ur doin here and then ,
u noe i would be there to hear any stories u willing to tell me ,
i really hope ur okay /