These days , u barely even say my name , like u don really feel the same . i wondering whats to blame .

- running back - jessica maulboy

those lyrics are stuck in my head .
i think i did something damn wrong .
Ace seems mad at me .
im sorry ,
sincerely i am , if i done anything wrong .
currently have a few slash marks on my arm ( not that visible)
i dont think thats enough though
i tried my best to understand , seems hes like me , he would want "to be alone" sometimes .
i wished he would tell me if he was facing any problems , for i loved being his listening ear . i could promise him to keep all that he told me as a secret . or anything.
i just feel like dying .
i dunno wad to do anymore .
couldnt stop crying .
i don think i can fake my smiles any longer .
i just feel so miserable .
yeah . i kinda miss his voice.
i really hope HE WOULD NEVER HATE ME .
i'll kill myself if he does .
argh .
i wonder whats wrong with me .
maybe thats why he wouldnt talk to me.
guess i should him more time .
i would feel tempted to msg him or something , yeah , i noe thats irritating .

all i want is for him to be happy , i would sacrifice anything just to see him smile .
anything .
even if it means dissapearing .

my entries are all from the heart ,
if u really noe me , i never lie .

stop me from destroying his life :(